i really think~~ i have to

i think i should let go of the past..

THE END IS NEAR

but this is just the beginning..

NAAH

am i supposed to be happy..
you're all i ever wanted

HAVE A BREAK

like a week ago.. i had the chance to check on my social networking sites. i read this posted bulletin of one good friend. in her bulletin, it says there:

"It was good I took a rest. A very short break I admit. The good thing was not "realizing the importance of someone when he or she was gone". I fell out of love unknowingly and when I become conscious of that, I laid back. But for that short moment in time, I instantly feel again the love i had for him. Same intensity of affection but this time it is more firm than ever. That the real best thing. "

i remember 5 months ago, i was bumming around.. to be honest, I'm not confused.. plainly i am just bumming around.. until some relationships have had to end.. or should i say i ended the thing just to give a justification to my so-called bumming-around! so there we go.. free from commitment, but we still hang around like how we used to-- shopping together.. having lunch out.. over staying at Mcdonald's.. picking me up when rain pours as if it's endless.. we still enjoy being together! (i'd like think we do)

on the other hand, i still bum around.. i know i am being unfair. to him, and to the people i have hit or i may hit while bumming around..

Right now i am in a state where i really am in between of love and friendship.. last August.. i was thinking if i should go on with this.. or just QUIT!.. but i had the hardest time making a resolution. )= and the months i spend wandering is growing in numbers..

but being in love is not enough to make things work! bumming had gone to disaster.. misunderstandings and all! i had a hard time to adapt to his system.. i am impatient and getting even more impatient.. simple things we could not make to settle started to pop out.. and YES I'M GETTING SO TIRED OF IT.. but in 4 months, i have began to get scared of losing this person i bum around with.. this is where I'm weak.. and it's killing me..

i have always hate THE ENDS.. but the only resolution i see is cutting the ties between us.. we both need to have a break! and he deserves to be spared from my insanity..

my current status--- SiNGLE..happy and contented


will he still love me until the next sunrise?..

I FELL ASLEEP BEING IN LOVE

then I WOKE UP NOT WANTING TO BE ATTACHED
but hey, MY HEART IS STILL BOUNCING

NO MORE CURLS

MY PANTENE HAiR iS SO BACK (:

SUPER SHOPPER NO MORE

I went to Baclaran last Wednesday to have a confession (i realized i have not confessed for i think 2 years now).. i asked our maid to go with me. then we settled that I'll bring her to the mall..

after the mass, we headed to the MALL of ASIA.. our first stop-- SM hypermarket. Janice bought her toiletries. shampoo, check.. deodorant, check.. sanitary napkin, check!..

i left the house with a small sling bag-- inside it is a small prayer book, hair comb, hanky, Mcdonald's discount coupon and 5 pieces of 100 peso bill. that was the first time i went away form home without bringing an emergency money.. you think i could resist from shopping had i brought more than enough?.. naah,, i don't think so!

after Janice paid for her stuffs, we dropped by the Fruitas booth and had my 16 oz Buko ni Fruitas and went straight to Mcdonald's. and because i am an ultimate kuripot i always have my free go big time coupon! real life FAVE SAVER.. hahaha

moving on, we checked on my favorite shops.. Landes-- where i really want their balloon (and Marco doesn't want me to purchase one) that costs 45o and up.. and 50 php for Helium refill (haha Honey, be proud, i said it right--HELIUM).. next, i went inside the pinkbox-- my latest addiction! thank God, no new stock.. and hey, Marco had just bought me 2 pairs of hair clip 2 weeks ago.. and last THEFACESHOP!! i tried new colors-- blue and hot pink.. i went out of the store without a single bottle of nail polish hahaha! my friends would be surprised to know!.. haha (next time na lang)

readers, the people close to me would be in a state of shock (haha) to know that i went home without being broke.. believe me, from 500-- i reached home with 280 pesos in my bag.. seriously, i am proud! i super am..

..but Regina doesn't go out of the mall with nothing to bring home.. our last stop was at National Bookstore. i bought plastic cover for my neew book and 2 dermatographs-- neon green and yellow..