Thursday, July 31, 2008

IF FRIENDS FORGET YOU, FORGET THEM TOO..

im soo back to life.. yeah, the metropolitan craze! which for a fact i couldn't stand, but i have to.. until the next 5 years of my life! oh welly welly well.. i just got home from my almost 2 month-stay in Bicol after my college graduation.. my first week there, i got really bored.. i decided to entertain friends at home just for the sake of not seeing the world.. i just don't feel like going out.. for the record, i felt insecure about the then "so-fresh-issue-about-the-man-and-the-friend-turned-biatch".. total homebody: reading, bonding with my younger cousins, teaching them games-- the pinoy way..

for the past 4 years, my world revolved around this man, i won't elaborate further information.. (: it was until my latest summer vacation that i learned to appreciate the outside world, AGAIN! i realized i missed a lot from my teeny-weeny days.. this time, i made sure that i get to enjoy each summer happening-- basketball league (SUMALE KA?!? hindi, nanuod lang! hahaha), beach, endless stories with girlfriends, sleepovers.. ALL PURE FUN..

little by little, boredom started to walk out of my vocabulary. i must say, i began to welcome old people i know whom i now call friends.. but see life's really unpredictable. at one point i was bored to death (take it from louie).. then suddenly i was drunk with fun and happiness.. But look at me now, i'm going gaga over everything that had happened!!

moving on., i was at stake during my last 2 weeks there.. super complicated really! hahaha can't go out, can't invite friends over, can't talk to them!!! and because Sheryl's my kuya Nico's girlfriend, she has the privilege to see me, talk to me and hang out with me..hayy thanx to you She! i totally missed the outside world.. one week.. house arrest daw sabe ni pwet-pwet..

stubborn, you may call me (sinagad-sagad ko na..) it was one saturday night i invited our friends over.. i just wanted to see them. I SWEAR TO GOD!..i don't have plans to make kwento with them.. plainly, I JUST WANTED TO SEE THEM..

when i woke up in the morning, the next thing i knew, i was packing my stuffs, and i'm leaving in 10 hours.. GRABE GRABE GRABE!! this is the most tulirong moment of my life.. (hahaha exage)

okay okay.. so there we go! i'm here (Manila) and they are there.. 8 hours away from me! and because i've been hardheaded, TOPSYTURVY IT IS! there were nasty words the overlord (the name He calls Her) had said.. but i think her reaction was out of anger. nasty as it is, it hit a lot of feelings (that's why someone said MARAME NG NADADAMAY..hahaha haneppp).. on the other hand, i understand the people who got hurt.. i'm not taking sides, yet, i have my own reasons why i think they lived the wrong way (i mean, not so right). i admit, i talk shit at times. i have my own flaws! FLAWS-- part of growing up.. RIGHTEE?.. it's just that i don't buy the "this is what we're used to" excuse.. to them, it's fine because they're used to it! i understand, but i don't get the "who's your girl last night", "what did you do?" and "what else happened?" thingy.. HEY WE'RE YOUNG AND WE CAN STILL IRON THINGS OUT..

their intervention? LIE LOW.. WOAH! I DON'T GET IT.. REALLY, i mean why?.. kim said that maybe, they are just preventing possible complications.. WHAT?..kim's convincing powers are not working.. Literally, figuratively.. they chose to stay away from me..

oh my gollygosh.. nuff said.. thanks to kim.. when everbody turned their back on me, YOU STILL CHOSE TO STAY..


Tuesday, July 29, 2008

21 YEARS DOWN THE ROAD

AFTER A MONTH OF EXCHANGING COUNTDOWNS WITH LOUIE MIGUEL, FINALLY IT'S OVER! I'M 21.. OFFICIALLY! OH I'M OLD. MY GOLLY GOSH.. ALTHOUGH THEY SAY "OLD" IS JUST A STATE OF MIND. FINE.. BUT I'M NOT GETTING ANY YOUNGER.. (=

.. LIFE IS NEVER EASY! MINE WAS ACTUALLY A TOUGH ONE.. HARD IT IS. STILL, I WAS ABLE TO HAVE FUN THROUGH LIFE'S JOURNEY.. YES, IT'S ONE GREAT JOURNEY! I SPENT 12 YEARS OF WORRY-FREE PLUS 8 YEARS WITH MINOR DIFFICULTIES..

AS I GROW UP, I LEARNED TO LIVE LIFE THE SIMPLE WAY.. I NEVER HAD THE BRAND "WHAT I WANT IS WHAT I GET".. BELIEVE ME, THERE WERE THINGS I GET RIGHT AFTER I ASKED FOR IT.. BUT MOST OF THE TIME, I HAVE TO SAVE FOR WHATEVER I WANT SPECIALLY THOSE MATERIALS THAT ARE NOT SCHOOL RELATED-- FLIP FLOPS, DRESSES, HEADBANDS.. etc!

I MAY NOT LIVED THE FAB AND GLAM WAY, BUT I THINK IT IS A PRIVILEGE.. BEING ON LOW PROFILE IS ONE HELL GREAT SECRET.. IT IS A BLESSING IN DISGUISE.. I WON'T BE HAVING MUCH OF A HARD TIME DEALING WITH DIFFICULTIES LIFE HAS TO OFFER...

I JUST LIVE.. I JUST LOVE.. I JUST EAT.. (:

Monday, July 28, 2008

THANKS GIVING

TO THE PEOPLE WHO
GAVE ME A RING..
SENT ME E-MAILS, TEXT MESSAGES, AND PRIVATE MESSAGES, AND COMMENTS ON MY SOCIAL NETWORKING SITES..
THANKS SOOO MUCH GUYS..
YOU MEAN A LOT TO ME (:
21 YEARS DOWN THE ROAD

Sunday, July 27, 2008

WHAT THE

Eight Stages of Healing After a Breakup
1. Stage 1 – SHOCK: “What the…? Are we really not together anymore? Am I sure? Maybe it was all a dream. Maybe he’s really left for a season and I will go into the bathroom and see him showering.” Your mind is deciding to deny your pain because it is too painful to process the truth. Chill and avoid drastic behavior like massive shopping sprees, tattoos and nasty haircuts.

2. Stage 2 – DENIAL: “I seriously think we were meant to be together. Deep down I know we’re just on a break.” Sure. Keep telling yourself this. Torture yourself because it feels good, like playing with a loose tooth or overusing tweezers. Just don't call him and pretend you never broke up.

3. Stage 3 – NUMBNESS: “I am so surprised at how easy he was to get over. I’m not even crying. In fact, nothing in my life seems to matter anymore. I’m not hungry or passionate about anything. Go figure.” Your mind is protecting you from overwhelming thoughts. Napping is good during this stage.

4. Stage 4 - FEAR: “What if I never date again? Will I end my days alone in a dusty old house knitting booties for the children I never had?” Talk about your fears with a friend who can snap you out of your extreme thoughts.

5. Stage 5 - ANGER: “Wait a minute. We never did any of those things we said we were going to do. It was all talk. What a schmuck. It was all his fault. I can’t believe I was stupid enough to love such a low-life hairy ball of earwax.” Let out anger in healthy ways with juicy revenge fantasies.

6. Stage 6 - DEPRESSION: “I have no one to go to brunch with anymore. And if I did, I’d rather stay in my bed and eat Chunky Monkey.” If the despair is unbearable or leads to suicidal thoughts, don’t wait to get professional help. Get it now.

7. Stage 7 - UNDERSTANDING: “I learned so much from him and I’m really glad I’m not dating him anymore. I guess we weren’t meant to be together.” Ahh, we are seeing the light.

8. Stage 8 – ACCEPTANCE: “He was not perfect but neither was I. We were meant to be together for the time we were together.” Now bring on the other fish in the sea. I’m fabulous!” You go girlfriend.